Maybe it was when Ava started crying…
And I realized that I could be a part of a child’s life without having to be a mom. Holding her and loving on her gave me so much joy. And if I never have kids, I can still love the children of those around me like I have the heart of a mom. I can still experience smiles, laughs, heartbreaks, and love.
And I realized that I could be a part of a child’s life without having to be a mom. Holding her and loving on her gave me so much joy. And if I never have kids, I can still love the children of those around me like I have the heart of a mom. I can still experience smiles, laughs, heartbreaks, and love.
Maybe it was when we went shopping…
And I realized that even though I don’t have a large group of friends, God gave me a friend who can make me laugh, cares about me, and we can just chill and shop at Target and grab dinner and relate to one another in a very chill, laid back way. That’s all I ever wanted—a friend who can encourage me and listen, but also shoot the breeze. We don’t always have to have deep conversation, sometimes we can just enjoy the little things in life. If I never have a big group—the “family” I imagined, that’s okay.
And I realized that even though I don’t have a large group of friends, God gave me a friend who can make me laugh, cares about me, and we can just chill and shop at Target and grab dinner and relate to one another in a very chill, laid back way. That’s all I ever wanted—a friend who can encourage me and listen, but also shoot the breeze. We don’t always have to have deep conversation, sometimes we can just enjoy the little things in life. If I never have a big group—the “family” I imagined, that’s okay.
Maybe it was when I realized time changes everything and
nothing…
Sitting across from her on the sofa, I came face to face
with all the struggles we had gone through separately, and realized that being
apart didn’t matter. I can still be so
close to someone even if it’s been years since I’ve seen them. Maybe I realize some friendships don’t really
dissolve even if it seems like time has taken us away from each other. That friendship is still there, waiting to shine
light and love in future situations in amazing ways.
Maybe it was when she walked into a room of family and
friends…
And I realized I was a part of it. I was loved enough to share in a special
moment. I felt special. And I felt blessed to stand by as she and her
new fiancé told their engagement story.
Again, I realized, quality over quantity. And if one person loves me right now, then
the gape in my heart should be a little less.
Maybe it was when he smiled at me…
And I realized I felt safe. I felt safe with him, plus all my other guy friends. I realized I am happy. I’m happy being single. I’m happy to have such great men in my life
who devote their hearts to Christ. I’m
blessed to watch as these friends begin to date—to watch them pursue women and
honor them. It gives me hope one day
that I should find a man who treats me likewise. And I like having my guy friends—no pressure
to be something I’m not, because there are no expectations. I can appreciate them as a sister does a
brother, no threat from either side of unwanted feelings.
And as I watch the world around me, I realize there's some happiness in me. Though there are everyday
annoyances and a heart that one day longs to be loved by one man, I am happy. I’m happy not dating, I’m happy as a single
girl, I’m happy as a friend, I’m happy as an employee. I don’t have everything I want, but I have
everything I need right now.
And now’s the time to soak it up. Every.
Single. Moment. Enjoy the friendships. Enjoy the rain. Enjoy the small trips. Enjoy the time alone. Enjoy the cup of coffee. Enjoy being goofy.
And that is exactly what I’m going to do.
Who’s with me?
