This is what I want
for you.
I heard His voice as I watched her walk down the aisle to
him, giggling.
This is what I want
for you.
I heard Him again as they laughed and danced their way back down the aisle to Walking on Sunshine.
This is what I want
for you.
They laughed as they made their first entrance as husband and wife.
They laughed during their first dance.
They laughed as they cut their cake.
They laughed during their first dance.
They laughed as they cut their cake.
Laughing, laughing, laughing, enjoying each other.
And I just kept hearing God, This is what I want for you.
And I don’t know when it clicked, but it did and I
thought, Hey, I want this, too.
I want someone who will laugh with me. Someone I can enjoy life with, side by side,
as my best friend. Someone not too
scared to be goofy with me. Someone not
scared to be different and funny and lighthearted, and intentionally seeking
joy.
This is the happiness I want for you.
Jamie, you love to laugh. I know
this about you, because I created you.
Everything you are, I made. You
have a heart that is meant for someone to appreciate, someone to nurture it and
the joy inside it. These last
relationships, though full of meaningful lessons, were never made to work. They didn’t make you smile, they didn’t make
you laugh. It was, indeed, very much the
opposite. You smile so much now. And I want you to recognize this. You will spend the rest of your life smiling,
laughing, and feeling the joy of the blessings I bestow upon you. But, I do not promise you a husband. Instead I promise that you will live a life filled
with joy and laughter. And I would
rather you be single and have this freeness in life, than, like Bryan said, be
leashed to a love unworthy of you. Because though you may find moments of
sadness in solitude, nothing is sadder than settling for someone. Take comfort that this is My plan, and cling
to the importance of joy. For if you so
decide to trade that joy for a spouse that doesn’t fit, it will be a sad day for
not only you, but Me.
And I do take comfort in that—so much comfort. Because He is right. I’ve laughed more in the last four months
than I have throughout entire relationships.
If my options were to be single and happy or be married and miserable, I
would rather be happy. Not that those are my only options, because they’re not—but,
they are if I settle. If I settle just to have someone in my life,
I am surely taking the lesser of the two routes.
And knowing this, hearing this from Him in this way,
watching the wedding yesterday, I feel more at peace with God’s plan for me…whatever
it may be.
For you are our glory and joy (1
Thessalonians 2:20).
