I hear God saying this every day. And every day I find myself more excited just
to follow Him.
Today JB’s sermon just hit on so many levels for me. And God just kept saying, “Yes, listen.”
This is the sweetest stage of my life, because I can hear
Him so clearly, and He is so loving.
I say, “I’m crap,” but hear, “There is greatness in you,
because I am with you.”
I say, “I can’t do this,” but hear, “You can, because I am
with you.”
I say, “It’ll never happen,” but hear, “It will, because
I am with you.”
I say, “I’m not,” but hear, “I AM.”
He is. Yahweh. Father. Redeemer. Savior. And I want to spend my life pouring into the next generation. I want a Joshua. I want my life—the life He has given me—to be spent focused outward, not inward.
I have met so many new people just within the last
week. And meeting new people just
ignites a fire in me to meet new people, to meet new people, to meet new
people.
My plan—it may
not be God’s plan, but it might be—these next months are going to consist of me
focusing, growing, learning, and praying like I’ve never prayed before, because
especially after the sermon today I know it’s on my heart to disciple
women.
Coming up from the dark depths of really what was Hell in
my life—I have every reason to try
and save and pour into women around me.
You don’t have to let your past mistakes decide who you are. Christ knows who you are and He died for
you. He died for me and I was the
ugliest person I knew. I never knew how
much He loved me until someone started pouring into me, and if I can share His
love with other women, then, by God, I am going to do it.
I am still imperfect.
I still make mistakes. I am still
ugly and unworthy and terrible. But I am
His. And they are, too. And they need to know. And I want to do anything it takes to get me
to that point where I have opportunity and confidence in how to share.
God, I just pray that you keep unfolding the layers of my
life. I pray that this passion does not
drift quietly on, but stays a roaring fire in my heart. I pray that the lives of others around me are
touched and driven by the same, and as iron sharpens iron, we push each
other. I pray for my future, that You would
lay a path of direction and focus for what I am to do. I pray for energy, emotional strength, and
trust in You and Your will for my life.
I pray for the women I’ve recently met.
I pray for the women who come into my life. I pray for my sisters whose idol is
marriage. I pray for my own heart that
it stays on You. I pray that I
accomplish Your will, and I can make You proud.
Like JB has said in the past, I am just one beggar telling another
beggar where to get bread. Let me be
used by You in great ways.
