This is the resounding question in my heart, and like a dam withholding flooding waters, tears are not far from this.
That I should walk another day in fake smiles and forced laughs will be one too many, and eventually I'm going to collapse.
Trying to find My Heavenly Father. Did I not pray for distress? Discomfort? A dislodging of worldly security?
For what I prayed, I received, and though I should be grateful for this moment, these moments for which I so asked, I am not, and lay quiet on the floor before God, longing for Him, for comfort, for security, for worth, for understanding, for hope, for love.
It would be of bias taste to leave out the weak moments and share only the strong, so tonight I share a heart broken, a suffering of sorts, an emptiness as ripe as poison.
God, fill these lungs for my soul is weak. For everything that has gone so wrong this week, search me, oh, God, and know my heart that longs for You.
That I should walk another day in fake smiles and forced laughs will be one too many, and eventually I'm going to collapse.
Trying to find My Heavenly Father. Did I not pray for distress? Discomfort? A dislodging of worldly security?
For what I prayed, I received, and though I should be grateful for this moment, these moments for which I so asked, I am not, and lay quiet on the floor before God, longing for Him, for comfort, for security, for worth, for understanding, for hope, for love.
It would be of bias taste to leave out the weak moments and share only the strong, so tonight I share a heart broken, a suffering of sorts, an emptiness as ripe as poison.
God, fill these lungs for my soul is weak. For everything that has gone so wrong this week, search me, oh, God, and know my heart that longs for You.
